Should I jump, or should I wait until I'm pushed?

This is an interesting question, and it has been highlighted for me by an experience that I am currently going through. One thing that I do know is that whether you jump, or whether push comes to shove, it is all your doing, as in, it is what you desire, sometimes you just need a little help making the final decision.

The thing for me is that I generally like to jump before I am pushed, it's happened a few times and I always feel more in control when I feel as though it was my decision. The control part is of course a total illusion, we have no control over the thoughts,words and actions of other people, in fact the only thing we have any control over is the way we react to the words and actions of other people, and doing so in a focused and positive way can take practice.

So jumping for me, allows for a smooth transition, being pushed however is a whole different ballgame, it makes me feel a though part of me has gone running off without me and I've been left standing here alone and confused with no idea as to what just happened. This has happened to me a lot over the years, and I never really understood it, but the feeling was always the same, that I had been left behind. It's only relatively recently that I've realised (thanks to Abraham Hicks) that that feeling is caused by your personal growth or expansion. Every time a desire is realised you expand, and your inner truth (Tru) takes the expansion and moves directly to it, with or without you. So if you don't go, you feel the gap, and the bigger and better your desire, then the bigger the gap and the worse you feel. Small things are generally fairly easy, you might feel a bit off for a while, but the feeling soon goes away and you're off again. Big things can be harder and a period of adjustment is often needed. Generally the gap is felt because there is something that we don't feel ready to let go of, but with time we adjust, and finally move forward. The thing to remember in those moments, is that there is no right or wrong way to process, it's all a very individual thing. The very worst thing you can do is berate yourself for taking too long, or for doing it the wrong way. The ONLY thing that will achieve is to hold you in that place for longer. By the same token, never allow anyone else to make you wrong for doing it your own way either.

Now the thing that I am finding interesting about all of this is that my current situation is that I have been given notice to move out of the room that I rent, and I'm finding it challenging to get my head around. The most perplexing thing for me is that I have no idea why I am so bothered by it since I've been trying to move out almost as long as I've been here, but the universe thwarted me every single time, until I finally concluded that until the timing was right I was going nowhere. Well apparently that time is fast approaching, so why I'm feeling this way is a mystery. What I do know is that when I felt this way in the past, as soon as I took my expansion, and joined Tru, this feeling disipated instantly, which based on past experience can take anything from a few days to a year. I can also tell the depth of the expansion by the depth of my feelings, so I know there is something big coming, becasue at the moment it's clearly a massive gap. Rather than butterflies, most of the time I feel like I have a herd of miniature elephants stampeding permanently in my stomach!

I've had a few major desires swirling round in my head for a while now, career/home/relationship so it will be really interesting to know where I'm going in any/all of these areas. Of course if you know anything about the Law Of Attraction you will know that I already know exactly where I'm going in all of these areas, what I don't know is how I'm going to get there, and that really is the fun bit!

I suspect that this is also about me showing myself that it is just as much fun to be pushed as it is to jump. Let's face it, it's not as gentle, so there is more impact, more momentum, so a requirement for more focus, which is ultimately going to lead to a manifestation on a grand scale. And to be honest, I'm the first to admit I love the adventure, its always a bit of a thrill if you feel there's an element of risk involved. 

And always, always, always, the universe has your back, and everything always works out!