Finding yourself in a place that feels like constant numbness can feel wrong, because we have allowed ourselves to be told that if we’re not constantly doing something then we’re not a valuable member of society, and that doing nothing is pure laziness or depression.

This is totally back to front, doing nothing with no distractions is the most beautiful gift we can give ourselves. Most people are uncomfortable with that state of neutrality and so for a long time it has been deemed to be a state of depression. It’s not been recognised that simply sitting, with absolutely no thoughts going through our head is a wonderful place to be. It means that we’ve managed to temporarily close the door to our ‘reality’ and are standing waiting, with open arms, for whatever is coming next.

I’ve been there a few times in the past, sometimes feeling disconnected for weeks, and I’m only now realising that it was always followed by substantial changes, because I was able to follow directions from my guides, that I hadn’t been able to hear in all the chatter.

We all have seasons. There are times when we full on motivated, getting loads of stuff done. Then there are times when we feel like we’re just plodding along, just taking life as it comes. And then there are times when we feel as though we have shut down completely, and just getting through the day is about all we can manage.

All of these states are valid, and all of these states are necessary. We have become far too good at judging ourselves as lazy or depressed just because we don’t want to participate in life for a while. But dropping out occasionally has great value, it’s where we grow.

It can be likened to a caterpillar, cocooning itself (which incidentally goes to mush before reforming as a butterfly), and no-one can deny that that is a hugely beneficial process, life giving in fact.

And we don’t judge trees through the winter months do we? We don’t say to the tree ‘look at you just standing there doing nothing, you can’t even be bothered to produce a few leaves’, because we know that although we can’t see it, the tree is going through a massive transformation, and when the spring arrives, right on cue, it will wake up and begin to sprout new life again.

That’s how we work too, we need those shutting down periods in order to grow and transform, so we need to recognise that it’s ok when that happens. It’s just a temporary phase that we will move through quickly if we can accept it, and let it do what it needs to do.

Asking ‘what’s wrong with me’ will take you on a journey with no answer, and so will hold you in that place until you ask a different question.

And the reason there is no answer is because there is nothing wrong with you, so your universe can’t answer because it’s a question that it literally doesn’t understand.

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