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1. To Jump Or Be Pushed?

   Posted on 1:00pm Tuesday 28th Jul 2020

   Should I jump, or should I wait until I'm pushed?

   This is an interesting question, and it has been highlighted for me by an experience that I am currently going through. One thing that I do know is that whether you jump, or whether push comes to shove, it is all your doing, as in, it is what you desire, sometimes you just need a little help making the final decision.

   The thing for me is that I generally like to jump before I am pushed, it's happened a few times and I always feel more in control when I feel as though it was my decision. The control part is of course a total illusion, we have no control over the thoughts,words and actions of other people, in fact the only thing we have any control over is the way we react to the words and actions of other people, and doing so in a focused and positive way can take practice.

   So jumping for me, allows for a smooth transition, being pushed however is a whole different ballgame, it makes me feel a though part of me has gone running off without me and I've been left standing here alone and confused with no idea as to what just happened. This has happened to me a lot over the years, and I never really understood it, but the feeling was always the same, that I had been left behind. It's only relatively recently that I've realised (thanks to Abraham Hicks) that that feeling is caused by your personal growth or expansion. Every time a desire is realised you expand, and your inner truth (Tru) takes the expansion and moves directly to it, with or without you. So if you don't go, you feel the gap, and the bigger and better your desire, then the bigger the gap and the worse you feel. Small things are generally fairly easy, you might feel a bit off for a while, but the feeling soon goes away and you're off again. Big things can be harder and a period of adjustment is often needed. Generally the gap is felt because there is something that we don't feel ready to let go of, but with time we adjust, and finally move forward. The thing to remember in those moments, is that there is no right or wrong way to process, it's all a very individual thing. The very worst thing you can do is berate yourself for taking too long, or for doing it the wrong way. The ONLY thing that will achieve is to hold you in that place for longer. By the same token, never allow anyone else to make you wrong for doing it your own way either.

   Now the thing that I am finding interesting about all of this is that my current situation is that I have been given notice to move out of the room that I rent, and I'm finding it challenging to get my head around. The most perplexing thing for me is that I have no idea why I am so bothered by it since I've been trying to move out almost as long as I've been here, but the universe thwarted me every single time, until I finally concluded that until the timing was right I was going nowhere. Well apparently that time is fast approaching, so why I'm feeling this way is a mystery. What I do know is that when I felt this way in the past, as soon as I took my expansion, and joined Tru, this feeling disipated instantly, which based on past experience can take anything from a few days to a year. I can also tell the depth of the expansion by the depth of my feelings, so I know there is something big coming, becasue at the moment it's clearly a massive gap. Rather than butterflies, most of the time I feel like I have a herd of miniature elephants stampeding permanently in my stomach!

   I've had a few major desires swirling round in my head for a while now, career/home/relationship so it will be really interesting to know where I'm going in any/all of these areas. Of course if you know anything about the Law Of Attraction you will know that I already know exactly where I'm going in all of these areas, what I don't know is how I'm going to get there, and that really is the fun bit!

   I suspect that this is also about me showing myself that it is just as much fun to be pushed as it is to jump. Let's face it, it's not as gentle, so there is more impact, more momentum, so a requirement for more focus, which is ultimately going to lead to a manifestation on a grand scale. And to be honest, I'm the first to admit I love the adventure, its always a bit of a thrill if you feel there's an element of risk involved. 

   And always, always, always, the universe has your back, and everything always works out!

2. It's Not Your Job To Work It Out

   Posted on 8:00pm Monday 20th Jul 2020

   

    

    

    

    

    

    

   Sometimes I write things down, just so that I can look back later and see how they worked out. I just came across this piece that I wrote on the 7^th March 2020………….

   I recently found myself in a very complicated situation, within a work environment.

   Brief overview; I was taken on to replace someone taking on a new role elsewhere. Her new role kept getting delayed, and I eventually ended up taking on her elsewhere role (temporarily) until all the things getting in her way were worked out. I tied myself in knots trying to work out what was happening/when/how and in the end I simply had to stop talking or thinking about it. There were simply too many variables to take into account, each one leading to a different outcome. Dates were regularly getting moved, I was re-interviewed for my original post with no idea when it would happen, and on and on. The whole thing just stressed me out. And then one day, I thought, you know what, enough. There is no justification for me going over and over this, there is no way I can ponder every single scenario, so there is actually no point in me pondering any of them. I just need to forget about it and let what is going to happen, happen. At the same time I made the decision that the last date I had been given for everything falling into place, was the one I was taking, regardless of any further changes that still had the potential to happen. At the time of writing this, that date is still two weeks away, and anything could still happen, but I feel so much calmer having made the decision that in two weeks time, I am done and I don’t care what the consequences of that might be.

   The funny thing is though, it’s kind of opened my eyes to what the universe is always dealing with. Our inner beings are conspiring with each other all the time, with many, many, many more variables than I came close to encountering, and they work it out every time, BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT THEY DO!! I feel as though they gave me a ‘sneak peek’, of their work. Well let me tell you, that brief glance was more than enough, we really do not need to know the ins and outs, in fact we wouldn’t be able to deal with them. All we need to know is the final outcome that we want, and the universe will quite simply put everything into place to ensure that we get it. All we have to do is sit back and let it happen, putting our nose where it doesn’t belong simply slows everything down.

    

   Which bring us back to the present (20.07.20), and I have just realised that the date I spoke of in this piece (i.e. the date I was not going beyond in my current situation) was in fact 21^st March 2020, and you may or may not be aware, but that was the very date that everything was shut down here in the UK because of covid.

   Now that my friends is a manifestation

    

   I have two things to say;

   I’m Sorry

   You’re Welcome

   You choose which you prefer :)