I've just been reading an article about Long Covid! And every fibre of my being is screaming 'There is no such thing' 'THERE IS NO SUCH THING!!'
And please, let me just clarify that I am not suggesting that what you are experiencing does not feel real, I've been there, I know precisely how it feels. But it was the very fact that no one could give me a definitive answer as to what was actually wrong with me, and then gave a name to something that wasn't even a thing, just so that they could finally hand out a diagnosis. So basically, we have no clue what is wrong with you, so we'll call it this, interesting that the latest name it has been given is long covid!
In my day, it was called ME, then later CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome), in fact in the 80's when it first raised it's head it was called yuppie flu, because it was seen as an illness that the yuppies had invented to get them some attention.
It's always been something that couldn't be truly diagnosed, the physical symptoms of exhaustion are there, but all the tests will always come back as normal, so there is never any clue as to what is really the cause.
I had ME for 4 years, but it was intermittent, and although I went to the doctors a few times to begin with, I didn't continue to do so. Truth is I didn't want a doctor giving me a diagnosis that in a way I was afraid of hearing. It was almost like once it was official then I would have to resign myself to my fate, and I wasn't prepared to do that and just give up.
As it was I found my own way out, I played about with my diet and discovered that anything white (bread, pasta, rice) would play havoc with my system and always make me feel worse, whereas brown always kept me on an even keel. To this day I still can't eat more than a little of any white product (which given what I know now, shouldn't really be an issue, but it's been a belief that I haven't been able to shake off - and to be fair I prefer brown so it's rarely a problem anyway).
It was magnet therapy that eventually pulled me out completely. I'd been wearing magnetic insoles in my shoes for years and had found them hugely beneficial, and so it got me wondering could magnets help in other ways. After doing some research, I found a magnetic mattress topper. It was literally a quilted top for a mattress, and in every quilted section (approx 3" x 3") there was a magnet.
Apparently this 'dis-ease' affects everyone differently, for me I would be exhausted for a month, and then for 2 months I would have a slight reprieve, in that so long as I was careful, I could live a 'normal' life, as in, I wasn't in bed the whole time. So a month laid up, 2 months just about able to function, repeat, for four years.
Anyway, when I slept on the mattress pad that first night , the next morning I felt better than I had for years, there was so much energy flowing through me and I felt great. I was at the time, in the 2 months mode so I had been feeling OK anyway, but this was something else. Don't get me wrong I wasn't about to go running a marathon any time soon, but something just felt different.
From then on, I slept on that mattress pad every night, and although I never again woke up with that thoroughly energised feeling, the total exhaustion never came back either.
I've always been a spiritual person, I didn't know back then what I know now, but I did know that if a doctor could not find any symptomatic reason then it had to be psychological, it had to be, and despite people telling me that this was something that never goes away, I refused to give in to it. I wanted my own shop and this was not going to get the better of me.
This all happened 20 years ago, and I can see clearly now how I created this 'dis-ease'. I'd just left a job that I was 'tired' of, I was in a relationship that I was 'tired' of, I was 'tired' of my life, and I wanted a way out. And that's exactly what I got, and it forced me to to re-evaluate my life and start asking myself what I really want, and in discovering the direction in which I wanted to go, I was offered the means to get me there. It didn't happen overnight, and it was a roller coaster ride, but I held onto my vision and ultimately I got there.
If this is something that you're currently going through, my message is this, your present reality does not define the rest of your life. There is always a way forward, but it is necessary to focus on where you're going, and take your attention away from where you are.