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1. Leap Of Faith

   Posted on 12:00pm Sunday 19th Jun 2022

   Well.............I have just set in motion the biggest leap of faith that I have taken so far. Or at least it feels like it!

   I figure I'll share the journey, so.........

    

   I moved to Brighton four years ago, which is a whole other story in itself, but basically I've created a life here, I have a job, a home, friends, I'm actually more comfortable here than I've ever been anywhere.

   And yet, that little voice continues to call me, there's more, there's more, there's always more! And there is always more, I have yearnings inside me that simply cannot be satisfied by my current circumstances. I want a shared home, I've been renting a room for four years now in a variety of different places within Brighton, and whilst that has been a valuable experience, it's time to share myself, rather than coexisting in a house/apartment. My job, well I love my job, and it's taught me a lot, but I have a handle on it now, and I know that it was simply a stepping stone to my next adventure. As for Brighton, well, I bloody love Brighton, and yet, I feel as though I've done all that I can here for now. The funny thing is, I've done it all as a single girl, and I know that if were to meet someone and be here, then it would be a whole different experience, so I'm not closing the door, I'm leaving it ajar.

   So about eighteen months ago, I started to feel the pull of something else. What else I still don't know, but I began to get snippets of information a few weeks ago. I will leave my job at the end of August and I will leave Brighton two weeks later. This might all sound a bit odd if you've never taken a leap before, but I've done it a few times, and everything always works out!! Even if it gets a bit tricky at times, it works out. 

   I'm not sure if anyone is even reading this currently, but I do know that actions speak far louder than words, so I figure if I journal my current journey that at some point it might provide some inspiration for someone. That someone might even be me, when I need a reminder when things get tough.

   Oh I've just remembered, I said I'd set the wheels in motion  didn't I - I've handed in my notice at work, no going back now!!

2. Gotta love an analogy....

   Posted on 10:00am Thursday 20th Jan 2022

   I love an analogy!

   They help me to find a way to line up with words, that without an analogy, are just words.

   I’m not very patient, I know that the universe knows exactly what it is doing, and me stepping in actually just gets in the way, and for the most part I accept that. On the majority of subjects when I get a thought, I accept that the thought is just the beginning, and that I will be inspired to act when the time is right.

   There is however, one subject where as soon as I get that initial thought, I jump in with both feet, convinced that the thought is all I need. Now don’t get me wrong, it’s led to me having some great experiences, but now those experiences have become normalised, because as we all know, even the most exciting experiences can become normal if we do them enough. And I began to find myself stuck in this loop, of doing the same thing over and over again. Different faces, different places, exactly the same experience!

   So…finally….I got the message, what I’m doing is clearly not working. Accepting that is obviously a big step, knowing what to do about it is another matter entirely. In fact that’s not completely true, I know the answer is to stop doing it, being able to follow through with what I know needs doing is actually the challenge.

   What I needed was an analogy that resonates, and that I can use when I need it. So I asked the question, and my universe was happy to oblige…………

   Think of every new desire as a jigsaw puzzle, we’re given the initial idea which is broken up and in its box. Many ideas never actually leave the box, we kill them before we’ve even removed the lid. However, for those of us in the know, we focus on the finished picture, which is usually on the front of the box….all we have to do is look at it. Now completing that puzzle is nothing to do with us, all we have to do is look at the picture. Each puzzle piece is like a tick box for the universe, that piece represents that belief…tick. That belief is a little off for this project, so we’ll use that experience to straighten it out….tick. Easy peasy right!

   Except, in our humanness, we’re not the best at waiting. I find myself looking at the picture and wanting to help, what I’m not aware of is that I’m looking at the picture from a funny angle, so when I put a piece of puzzle in, it actually doesn’t fit properly. But I can’t see that, I’ve been blinded by my need to reach the finish line faster, but what I’ve actually done is halted proceedings. The universe now has to take me through an experience in order for me to recognize that my puzzle piece is a little wonky, I put it in there, it’s up to me to straighten it. How quickly that happens is entirely up to me, the more annoyed I get about that wonky puzzle piece, the harder I make it on myself, in the end the only answer is to take a big step back and take another look from a distance.

   Ultimately the best way to complete the puzzle is to leave the universe to do what it knows best, whilst I get on with the important business of living my life. I know, because experience has shown me that when it’s finished I’ll get that little whisper, and I’ll be in no doubt as to what I need to do.

   xx